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Friday, January 7, 2011

Wow. So long never blog. Haha. I'm sorry.
So today. I feel really emotional.
Mostly because of the class comm thing.
So I got nominated for being a chairperson with 5 other classmates of mine. But unfortunately, I didn't get it. Of course, I do feel sad. Really, really sad. I've never been so desperate in my life. I've always wanted to be a chairperson. I know being a chairperson is hard. But, I just have that feeling that I can do it you know. I believe in myself. I know Liyana is good too. But you know. Desperate. So I told her about how I felt. And she said to me that teacher would surely pick me for councillor. She says that I'm responsible & good. That made my day and I really hope so. And I do hope to be in CCA Comm too. I find it really unfair. That only the chairperson position gets the most nominees. I mean it's pretty unfair. The rest of the positions only get one nominee and they get to be the selected ones. It's pretty unfair. As my classmates around me are all in the class comm, I feel really useless, rejected, depressed & invisible. It's like I'm nothing. Nothing at all. Just another student in my class. I've had leadership skills. Why dont choose me. Seriously, choosing the class comm is just another popularity contest. It isn't fair. They just don't see the inside me. I do say I'm responsible. And I can help people. But not many people see that. It's like I'm invisible. Teachers another one. They have no brains? I feel so rejected. It's like I've lost something so precious to me. Have you always wanted something so badly? It's like you really really want it, but you can't, because you already lost. You feel out of control, and you just want it more and more. I feel that way. Desperate. I really don't know what my friends think of me. I actually want to know who voted for me. Are they true friends, or not. I'm happy for all of you, really. But I just think it's really unfair. I'm not angry. Just.. rejected, sad.
Another reason. Is you.
I feel like I don't know you anymore. You ignore me. You don't even say hi. You don't even want to talk to me. I'm being honest, I really do miss you. Miss talking to you. And it's only for two days. It feels weird not talking to you. It's like a habit to me. Okay. So maybe you're having a hard time. I'm having a hard time too. You're not the only one. But you just got to be strong you know. I'm trying my best to get over this class comm thing. I hope you talk to me.


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