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Get It Right
Thursday, March 10, 2011

I really can't tell. I just don't know.



What can you do when your good isn’t good enough? When all that you touch tumbles down?





What can I do? It's always me. I destroy my friendships. I don't know whats wrong with me. I just destroy it one by one. Who am I to blame? Myself. I just wish there was just someone, who is just there for me, all the time. Like Wani said : "I wish that I can be invisible & see how the world's like without me in it. Feeling redundant is a very painful feeling." I really wish. I want to read your minds. How you really feel about me. It's just.. ouch, reglected, rejected.





‘Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things. I just wanna fix it somehow.





I want to fix this. But how. I'm too afraid to even stand up for myself. I'm a coward. I want things back together like they were before. Peace. I want peace. Why can't there be peace? If peace was stable, there won't be any shit going on. There is no peace because people change, you change, I change. What can we do about it? We only can do it if someone tells us about it and you are willing to change. But change is always hard. Hard to accept as well.





But if I get wiser and stronger, I'll get through this.


I know you saw my eyes red, I cried yeah. Thanks to a gay teacher. And I was sad as usual cause of my clique. You're becoming like one of them. Selfish, rude. What else? Pretending. I know. It's pretty obvious. Your attitude is just getting bad to worse. I can't take it. I hope I'll get stronger. I'm strong, but I don't know if I can get through this.


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