I wish this so bad.

You keep asking me those questions. I really don't know how I feel right now. I love you, yet I'm worried & scared. I afraid, to lose you so bad. You asked me if I would go back to wq if you left. No, I won't. Because, I can't. My heart is beating so fast, it feels painful. It's okay, you hurt me. I'm sorry too. I wanted to kiss you today, but I don't know why I held back. ): Great): stupid me. Holding hands with you again, you let go suddenly. I guess because of the past part. I'm not hungry, no appetite I guess.

Was the dare, to touch you? You know I'm not like that, I'm new to these kinds of things. I'm sorry, but I was scared kay. ): Really scared.

And now whatever way the stories end, I know you have re-written mine.

Thanks for today, thanks for everything. If we part, I don't know, I'll just look back, and think of all those moments that we had together. It was nice. I'm crying and writing this now. You say I'm hurting because of you. )': I'm sorry. So much of me is what I've made from you, you'll be with me like a handprint on my heart. You'll always be in my heart, always.

I guess thats all, you're probably gonna get a scolding again, because of me. I still feel bad dear. ):

So today we got back our report books, I got 7th in class & 11th in level. Congrats to Kai Tan, she can go express, but she's still considering. I'm okay with my ranking, but disappointed that I didn't achieve for top 5, when teacher announced top 5 people, my heart sank. Oh well, just goes to show that I have to work hard for eoy. There's not more through train, so.. ): But it'll still be split into 3 classes, but I have no idea what they will be offering. Gonna aim for top 10 in level.

Watched kung fu panda 2, I teared a bit. It was so freaking cold, but your hands made me warm & cold at the same time. Haha.

Kay, thats all. Long post today sia.

I love you dear <3