Shot me out of the sky, you're my kryptonite♥

So again. Same shit happens. Sat with you during chinese, and they made fun. I know you felt like crap as well, I'm sorry I sat with you. So I was writing a song during chinese, I was bored & I felt like writing it. Anyway, they won't stop. They will never learn, they won't change. Because they don't make the effort to. Currently, Nat & Liyana knows the situation, never really talked to anyone about this except for you, but we're not really that close anymore. And I don't know if I can still trust you. Nat says to be strong, I am. I really am. But really, what can I do. Nat's having a fight with sab and all, and I'm in between. Christiann asked me to ignore her. I can't. I choose my friends. I'm not choosing sides. If you can't accept me having to choose my friends, then you really aren't a good one. Maybe you're pushing me away. I know. You'd rather go with Syalita now right. It's okay. Maybe you're harassed by them, embarassed because of the truth. I know how it feels like. But you don't try. You get teared down, but you don't really show it. I'm sorry. I want to be a better person. Like what Mrs Matthews said, "If you have nothing nice to say, keep it to yourself." Dione, you fake a laugh. It's so obvious. And it's really getting annoying. All of you, just think of one nice thing that I have done, is it so difficult? I guess it is right. Because you only remember the bad things I do, and forget about the good things I've done. I get it. We're all humans, we aren't perfect. God made us for a reason, to be important to someone. But I guess, I just haven't found that someone yet. Maybe I never will. But it goes to show how the world is like. How reality is like. It sucks, I know. "Reality is a lovely place but I wouldn't want to live there." - The Real World - Owl City. Rather be in your dreams right. Anyway, trying my best not to care about this shit. Because I really have to focus now. Mrs Matthews said to throw away the excess luggage, I still haven't done it yet. And the excess luggage are my friendship problems, relationship problems, problems which I don't want to face at all. Trying my best to get rid of it. And at the end, I hope to accomplish it by going to a good class. Nat, thanks for being there for me, I know they hate you and all, but you're being strong and really courageous, you're really the most courageous person I know, who really goes to talk to those who do not like you. I'm afraid, I'm scared, I'm not even able to do that. I'd just keep it to myself, but really, what difference does it make? It's hard to change to a different person. And Nat's really having a hard time doing that. But you guys just don't want to give her a chance. I know I haven't gave you chances recently, I'm sorry, but this is just a different thing. And so now you're pushing me away. I don't know, but have you really seen my archives?