Shot me out of the sky, you're my kryptonite♥

Just blame it on me, everything's my fault. I get left out, I lose. I lose all the time. I don't even know why I try to help. You're just using me. My intelligence, my stationary, my work. What do I get back in return? This. Humiliation, rejection, pain, lies. Maybe I deserve this. I'm a bitch to you all. But what can I do about it? It's always going in circles. It will NEVER stop. None of you really know much about me. I doubt you guys even know that I also had the good progress award with Emmersen. Maybe you just didn't want to sit with me, cause' I suck. Maybe it's about time I become a loner. Probably during recess I'll starve and have a heavy breakfast or I pack food and stay in class and not go down with you guys. Maybe it's better that way, that I stay out of your lives. Maybe it's better if I wasn't there at all. Or if I am not even alive. I left early because they kept looking at us. Why the fuck do you have to keep on looking at us? Is it a problem if we don't sit together? What's the fucking problem? Just wanted to be alone for a while. Like I said, better off if I'm alone anyway. You guys left me out. I guess I don't exist anymore. Or maybe I never will. Please, just don't blame me for something which I didn't say or do. I didn't say that I didn't want to meet you guys for dnt. I do. Thing is, fuck it. I hate my group. Cause I'm working with the worst people to ever have in a group. I doubt you guys pity me right. Nobody pities me. They think I can handle it, but no, I can't. I'll probably do all the work again. If not I'm gonna ask Mrs Seah if I can do it solo, but I'll doubt so. I'm probably gonna die for the rest of the year. I can't take this shit anymore. I'm gonna tell Ms Lim. To change my seat and tell her about what you all have done to me, since last year. I can't continue to be affected. It's streaming and exams are approaching. I can't keep going around feeling sad all the time. I'm sorry, I made both of you feel like you wanna cry. But, thanks for helping me. Or at least trying to help me. I'm being more stubborn. I'm sorry. Anw, I'm not going for class outing. Cause our class is really gone, it's not a class anymore. Since you wanna exclude me, fine. I'm not even liked in school, thats pretty horrible. But you're always liked in class. So that just makes me jealous, I'm sorry. Typing that made me sad. But at the end of the year. I'll show you. I can push myself and be better than all of you. I just need the strength to overcome this now and work hard.