Shot me out of the sky, you're my kryptonite♥

Again being left out as usual. I've seen, you guys have friendship bands. And I don't. I guess I'm just jealous. Wanna be included. But I can't force you. I doubt anyone notices that none of them gave it to me because they think I'm still in the clique. No, I'm not in the clique anymore. I'm a pure loner. What to do? Anyway I starved today. Cause the queues were damn long during recess, and had cramps. So, no appetite. Just drank water & ate sticky. Sometimes I wonder if I'm trusting the right people. I don't know. Talking to Nat about what they have done to me. I know she gets it. She feels as if she's always the last one. I'm the same now. But at least they like you, Nat. I'm not even liked by anyone anymore. I'm a bitch now. It's like when you think they care, but they actually don't. It's either they realised what happened to you, but don't bother to ask. Or they don't notice at all. But I guess I just have to move on. I was supposed to go tell Ms Lim with Liyana, but Idk, I just have this feeling that's holding me back. I admit, I'm clingy. But when I have to be alone, I guess I just have to go with it. Just gave Nat some of my emo songs. What can you do when your good isn't good enough? And all that you touch tumbles down. Cause' my best intentions keep making a mess of things, I just wanna fix it somehow. But how many times will it take, how many times will it take for me to get it right? I always ask myself. What did I do wrong now? When you try your best but you don't succeed, when you get what you want but not what you need. When you feel so tired but you cant sleep, stuck in reverse. And the tears come streaming down your face, when you lose something you can't replace. When you love someone but it goes to waste, could it be worse? And who do you think you are? Running round' leaving scars. You're gonna catch a cold, from the ice inside your soul. Cause' you broke all your promises, and now you're back, you don't get to get me back. This time was different, felt like I was just a victim. And it cut me like a knife, when you walked out of my life. Skies are crying, I am watching. Catching teardrops in my hands. Only silence, as its ending, like we never had a chance. Do you have to, make me feel like there's nothing left of me? I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing. And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay? I'm falling to pieces.