I try to find the words when you walk by, word just can't explain the way I feel inside. My friends keep saying you're untouchable, and I can't help being invisible.

I feel so lost. I don't even know what I'm doing anymore. You knew about today, but you just wanted me to talk. I'm sorry for today, I guess I just wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone. Or tell anyone about it. And I'm going to tell Liyana. And then I'm going to complain to teacher. I can't take this anymore. I'm gonna change my seat. I can't concentrate when I'm sitting around there. Also, I guess they would prefered me to move away anyway, so I might as well.

Please, don't tell me you've never cut a queue before. I admit, I'm in the wrong. But it doesn't mean you have to shout and scream rudely at me. Can't you have some respect for your classmates? You think the whole world revolves around you guys. Thanks Sangita, Jody & Vanessa for asking, but I just can't take the offer. It's just me. So I cried, my eyes feel so sore. I just couldn't stop. I just kept thinking about it. I should've stopped long ago. But I guess my senses just, it's just so annoying. And this isn't the first time they've done something like that to me. It has already been many times. I can't take it anymore. And I have to focus because it's streaming. But how if I don't maintain? How if they all worked hard and get in to the same class again? It'll just kill me alive. And there are only less than 20 slots. And all our rankings are so close. Have to keep a focused mind, and I can't be focused if I sit near them.

Wani, faster come back. I desperately need you.

Thanks for cheering me up <3 love you all.